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And Problems came inside // vent by Blue-Lapidali And Problems came inside // vent :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 3 4 Flower boy by Blue-Lapidali Flower boy :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 1 0 Raining tears, of joy and sadness at the same time by Blue-Lapidali Raining tears, of joy and sadness at the same time :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 1 0 Chara portrait by Blue-Lapidali Chara portrait :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 4 0 Happy Birthday CuttlyFishy ! by Blue-Lapidali Happy Birthday CuttlyFishy ! :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 4 5 Sketchdump // 1 by Blue-Lapidali Sketchdump // 1 :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 0 0 Dead dear / Art Trade by Blue-Lapidali Dead dear / Art Trade :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 3 2 Emily Reference sheet by Blue-Lapidali Emily Reference sheet :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 2 0 Neo swing dancer by Blue-Lapidali Neo swing dancer :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 1 0 Ink doodle by Blue-Lapidali Ink doodle :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 1 2 Merry christmas ! by Blue-Lapidali Merry christmas ! :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 1 0 Watercolor doodles by Blue-Lapidali Watercolor doodles :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 0 0 Cat drawing training by Blue-Lapidali Cat drawing training :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 2 0 Volleyball party : presentation by Blue-Lapidali Volleyball party : presentation :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 0 0 Inktober 2016  - Day 8 : Hm ? by Blue-Lapidali Inktober 2016 - Day 8 : Hm ? :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 2 0 Inktober 2016  - Day 3 : Mystic by Blue-Lapidali Inktober 2016 - Day 3 : Mystic :iconblue-lapidali:Blue-Lapidali 0 0

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I have seen the dark universe yawning by DisposableD I have seen the dark universe yawning :icondisposabled:DisposableD 1,171 54 stars by jin-rikkun stars :iconjin-rikkun:jin-rikkun 103 13 FUN AND GAMES by Sout FUN AND GAMES :iconsout:Sout 257 18 THINGS AGAIN by Sout THINGS AGAIN :iconsout:Sout 123 15 srry pals by fo-tze srry pals :iconfo-tze:fo-tze 21 4 Baby Im No Angel  by AmeraXi Baby Im No Angel :iconameraxi:AmeraXi 285 54 Ghost by 40451 Ghost :icon40451:40451 63 2 Mushy llama by Teatime-Rabbit Mushy llama :iconteatime-rabbit:Teatime-Rabbit 122 18 Anh da tung yeu em Nghi lai thay dau long Book by tuyetdinhsinhvat Anh da tung yeu em Nghi lai thay dau long Book :icontuyetdinhsinhvat:tuyetdinhsinhvat 275 8 Pai - Rise From Ashes by Clockwork7 Pai - Rise From Ashes :iconclockwork7:Clockwork7 345 16 mango juice and skateboards by GhostInAJar mango juice and skateboards :iconghostinajar:GhostInAJar 66 16 ew ugly by GhostInAJar ew ugly :iconghostinajar:GhostInAJar 46 5 a n x i e t y by GhostInAJar a n x i e t y :iconghostinajar:GhostInAJar 42 5 Kenjie showing off by DarkKenjie Kenjie showing off :icondarkkenjie:DarkKenjie 245 8 [dpr] event 3 - O U P S by lindividulouche [dpr] event 3 - O U P S :iconlindividulouche:lindividulouche 148 35 separate worlds by siechy separate worlds :iconsiechy:siechy 36 7

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And Problems came inside // vent
- Before I realized a hole opened in my chest ,
  Anxiety came in 
  Tears came out
  I couldn't do anything 
  My hands became dark of incomprehension and hate
  And roses bloomed in the inside -

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My first vent art , that's how I look like in real life but I didn't add the glasses
I have to say I think it's my beautifulest piece of artwork I've done .

I don't really want to give you all the details , but this year particularly has been difficult for me. I had depression social anxiety , stress , and I was feeling really bad :


I hate everything about myself : my voice , my clothes , the way I do things , my personality.

Because of that I have social anxiety , I can't talk to people , I get uncomfortable in some places and I never tell , even to my closest friends how I feel , because I am scared of how they'll react. 
I don't self-harm because I have a fear of pointy objects but I have breathing problems sometimes.

It's really hard to talk about it , but I couldn't just stay like that letting you think that all was perfect when it wasn't.
That's all I really want to say.
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Sorry it's been a long time since I posted anything.
But ... I'm really tired.

My self-esteem has been really low recently , and I have a very lack of motivation
I'm constantly questioning my art what I should do, what people want, what I want.

Every time I do watercolors , I suffer because can you imagine , in one hole year , only I have not progressed at all but it's even worse !

And I just hate everything I do pretty much recently , my lineart, digital art, inking, posting things, animating

And I just don't know what to post !!! : should I do an Art trade , does people want me to do a new meme, should I animate - but I'm bad at it - , can I make a map even - even though I have zero subscribers and nobody would want to take parts -, I want to do a big digital piece but I'm not good enough and my idea would be too difficult for my skills ... Etc ...

So I just want to know what do you want , what will make me have a better gallery and what I can change because I just really don't like my gallery, what do you think I should do to get better

After I'll finish my comic , it should be during this month normally, I'll do a May full of Art and I'll to boost myself to get better before doing any projects because I'm really tired of not achieving what I want
Manga progress :)

Cover : Almost done UvU
Storybard : 100%
Pencil : 2/5
Ink : 0/5
Screen Tones : 0/5
Motivation :   :D




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Watercolor skills : zero
Please help :iconcuttlyfishy:to move out by donating on : www.youcaring.com/caseybmyself…

It's really important, they live in a house where they are not feeling well and they need money to move out to a better place ! He is really a sweet and caring person, he truly deserves it , and I really want him to be happy !

If you can donate please do it even if you don't have a lot, but if you can't, spread the word as much as you can !

Thank you for reading 
Bye !
Flower boy
Sorry for posting normal art on April Fools day X) ! 

I found some blue paper so I just sketched on it for fun :)
I'm sorry if it's kinda messy but he's holding straws and flowers Flower Bullet (Red) - F2U! 

And if I know there's thousand of others Flower boy but I really like drawing people with flowers, and since I really like it I posted it here instead of in a Sketchdump !
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Sorry it's been a long time since I posted anything.
But ... I'm really tired.

My self-esteem has been really low recently , and I have a very lack of motivation
I'm constantly questioning my art what I should do, what people want, what I want.

Every time I do watercolors , I suffer because can you imagine , in one hole year , only I have not progressed at all but it's even worse !

And I just hate everything I do pretty much recently , my lineart, digital art, inking, posting things, animating

And I just don't know what to post !!! : should I do an Art trade , does people want me to do a new meme, should I animate - but I'm bad at it - , can I make a map even - even though I have zero subscribers and nobody would want to take parts -, I want to do a big digital piece but I'm not good enough and my idea would be too difficult for my skills ... Etc ...

So I just want to know what do you want , what will make me have a better gallery and what I can change because I just really don't like my gallery, what do you think I should do to get better

After I'll finish my comic , it should be during this month normally, I'll do a May full of Art and I'll to boost myself to get better before doing any projects because I'm really tired of not achieving what I want

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Blue-Lapidali

Artist | Student | Varied
France
Hello everyone I'm an young artist from France.

I draw digital ;manga ;traditional etc....
I don't post often cause i'm busy but I'll try to post every week :)

You can talk to me in French if you want ;) .
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maxyvert Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch :la:
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Blue-Lapidali Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017  Student General Artist
But I've been watching you for a month already XD !
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maxyvert Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
Yes, I saw the date but I was a bit busy :') Hope I wasn't too late x')
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Blue-Lapidali Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017  Student General Artist
Nah it's okay :)
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ziloDMK Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2017  Student General Artist
Merci pour le watch!!!! GIF Adventure Time - Poo Brain 
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Blue-Lapidali Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2017  Student General Artist
De rien , j'aime beaucoup ta gallérie et ça fait déjà un petit moment que je te suis sur Mangadraft et Facebook ! Hâte de voir la suite de Kokonoe :D !
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ziloDMK Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2017  Student General Artist
Ah j'étais sûre que ton pseudo me disais quelque chose! Il me semble que t'avais laissé un message sur Mangadraft! Je suis contente que mon univers te plaises!!!!! (((o(*゚▽゚*)o)))
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MutatedEye Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2016  Student Digital Artist
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Mark-Henry Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2016  Student General Artist
Thanks 4 the fav
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Eostet Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, thanks for watching!
Your art style is awesome btw, you're really good with traditional :0
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